Nicole Oakes Answers
That would be frustrating! It's great that you are searching for answers - deep inside you know this isn't you! To understand why this happens it helps to understand the mind and how it works.
Our minds consist of both conscious and subconscious portions, the subconscious mind controlling the majority of our thoughts and behavior. It is therefore extremely powerful. However, the subconscious mind operates on a memory, on automatic programs that have been set up over our lifetime that allow us to run efficiently - it's subconscious.
So if consciously you want happiness and are making changes on the outside but are still feeling unfulfilled, you are running subconscious programs that are keeping you stuck where you don't want to be.
The good news is that the mind can change! By working with the subconscious mind you can dismantle the automatic programs that are keeping you stuck and rewire your brain to operate in a way that will allow you to achieve your goals.
As you experienced, it's hard to win when we are fighting with ourselves. You're literally battling your own mind. The mind isn't trying to hurt us on purpose, it's just doing what it was told. When you rewire the brain you change the operating system so you are no longer fighting against yourself and can easily reach your goals. Your mind is the most powerful tool you have, if you know how to use it!